Poor in Spirit…needy…weak… as Eugene Peterson puts it in
“The Message”: “You are blessed when you’re at the end of your rope.” Can’t count on your own strength…ready to
give up…not knowing how you’re gonna get through the day…poor.
It’s a very interesting concept. You have to be at the end of your rope…the
end of yourself to have the kingdom of God.
I know we all get this in terms of our salvation. Anyone who has accepted Christ as savior and
Lord, had to be near or at the end of their rope in some way or another. But I think this is more than just the recipe
toward salvation. It seems to me that
Jesus wants us to live like this…every day.
Poor.
I have spent a good deal of time rich in spirit…feeling
in control, feeling strong, I had the answers,
I could plow through. I have also
spent a good deal of time trying to pretend I was rich in spirit…don’t tell me
how to solve this problem…I know…I can handle it…but really feeling like I was
caving in.
This year…God is making me poor in spirit. He’s yanking up fears and anxieties…long held
insecurities…tearing it out and laying it next to the stress, the mistakes, the
failures and…the worst of it all…the “what ifs” and “what does it means”. He’s forcing me to look at it all…over and
over until I reach my own poverty.
I am absolutely nothing and have absolutely nothing
without you, Jesus. This…is the start of
the kingdom of God.
Because, as Jon’s life group discussed, all the rest has
to start here. Once you’re poor in
spirit then you can:
Mourn
Be gentle
Hunger and
thirst for righteousness
Be merciful
Have a pure
heart
Be a
peacemaker
Be the salt
of the earth
Be the light
of the world
And if you take many a misstep in any of those…stop being
those things…it all has to go back to the beginning…being poor.
He tells us that we’re blessed when we’re persecuted,
blessed when men cast insults because of Him…to consider it joy when life
sucks. But it doesn’t work unless we’re
poor in spirit.
I think poor in spirit changes everything. If you read verses like “Rejoice in the Lord
always” or again, “consider it all joy my brethren when you encounter various
trials”, or “be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer …with
thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God” without the poor in
spirit, you think that a true Christian never doubts, never worries and always
“chooses joy! (Insert happy face)”.
But I think the poor in spirit part negates that. Reading those verses with poor in spirit says
this instead.
This life is brutal and you can’t do it. You won’t have
the strength or the confidence, and most of the time it’s just a lot of hard
work. But…rejoice…remember…hope…you have
the kingdom of heaven which means I am with you, I will help you and I am
making it all into a beautiful tapestry of glory.
Isn’t that what “theirs is the kingdom of heaven”
means. God’’s kingdom at our fingertips,
right by our side. Unfortunately we
misunderstand what that means and how that feels. I don’t think it is supposed to feel that
good…and certainly it doesn’t feel that comfortable. We’d much rather feel strong and confident,
yet the kingdom of God…the power that raised Jesus from the dead…the grace that
brings life from death…the hope that soothes the wounds…that belongs to the
poor in spirit.
If I think about it, I am much more likely to have
patience with the little old man going 20 mph on the freeway in front of me, or
much more able to empathize with another’s pain, even shedding tears at the
sound of their pain, or much slower to anger when confronted with another’s
weakness and demands when I am at the end of rope.
When I am not…when I am confident, strong, ready to
conquer the world, I am much less patient, empathetic and quick to anger.
And I think when we are poor in spirit, somehow all the
burdens we carry start to fall from our shoulders. We know we can’t handle them, so lay them
down.
I
think it’s what Jesus really wants from us…more than joy, more than confidence,
more even than perfect assurance of our faith…He wants us poor…
at the end of
ourselves…
laid out before Him…
ready to let Him fill with all things good…
to have
the Kingdom of Heaven.
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